I will be sharing one of my ‘behind the scenes’ moment with you all today. 😊
So the book was ready to be released some weeks ago after I got the final draft. And for some reason, I felt so ‘not ready’ and had some restriction in my heart as well on sending it out at that time. The anticipation I had for it weeks earlier before that time, seemed to have washed off.
It was like, the book is finally ready and I should be excited for it and send it out but I just couldn’t. I was in a fix and it felt weird because I had anticipated it being ready and what I was going to do. Imagine anticipating a gift or the completion of a project and it was finally given or completed. But somehow you are caught up in asking yourself “where did all the anticipation I had for this, go to?”
I was in this fix for sometime, and I prayed about it. I also spoke to a few friends about it and thankfully they supported me letting it out when I was cleared on it. For me, writing is a ministry and it’s important for me to take the step when He needs me to. And that includes being sensitive enough to pause and evaluate the ‘why’ when I’m not feeling up to it or feeling a disconnect, regarding a particular thing He has asked me to do.
This book isn’t just some manual or a study note. It’s one I am always thankful for when I think of that season in my life and how God brought so much hope to me even when I was losing sight of it.
So yes, few weeks after the ‘disconnect’ feelings. I went to bed so early because I felt a bit sleepy and I was avoiding my evening saga of being wide awake, much later into the night.
Off to bed I went and I woke up less than two hours afterwards to use the restroom. I was so sleepy that I partly opened my eyes to walk down to the toilet. But guess what, I found myself wide awake after I got back in bed. Phew!
It was in this state that I got several ideas on the book and how to launch it. The Funny thing is that, sleep was on my mind and nothing about book. 😃
I wanted to get back to my sleep and even tried forcing it. But the ideas just kept coming. So here I am writing it all out because the inspiration I’ve been seeking on it finally came.
And just as He has been working with me, when it comes to my write-ups. I write in unusual times like this, sometimes. Hence, when I was getting all that inspiration and sleep seemed to be crawling away from me, the more I tried, I picked up my phone and yielded. And yeah we are here. 😀
I trust Him to bless your heart through this book just as He did for me. Because that is what His word does – It sets us Alive because it is “Alive and Active, and it pierce us deep” (Hebrews 4:12; Paraphrased)
You are loved. ❤️
The final post and launch of the book is this Christmas. Yay!
Until next time, dear friend. 💛
Thanks for staying with me and being here.
Abba loves you much!