๐Ÿ’ญ My several Attempts ๐Ÿ˜ข

โ€œLord I want to leave this countryโ€ was one of the highlights on my prayer list since 2015, when I left the University. Mind you, not because I hated my country. No, Nigeria will always be a dear place for me because it groomed me.

Rather I wanted to leave because my preferred course of study (Biotechnology); based on findings is well taught on a higher scale in the developed countries where they are fully invested in tech.

So yes I started my applications. Oh, these applications were on serial mode!

It stretched me. And yeah some of them came through but finance was always the issue.

Yeah maybe I was just the girl with big dreams.

Truthfully, when I think about the funding aspect of the program during these applications, somehow I am like – let me just try it out.

In between this, I applied for some of the available scholarships as well, but guess what? It all went south (all declined).

But the knowing and drive that โ€œThere is something more for me than thisโ€ was always there. And as much as so many situations frustrated me, I am thankful God kept the dream alive in me.

A quick detour on this. I was trying to sleep sometime last week when these thoughts crossed my mind. And I knew it was one of those moments when I donโ€™t have to stop at โ€œthank you Jesusโ€ and it was important for me to share His goodness.

So between 2015 and 2021. I had nothing less than 10 admissions in different countries; had a recurrent full scholarship with GTA offer in US for 2 years but I couldnโ€™t go because I had my visa denied 5 times (another story for another day). And several emails sent out with no reply at all or โ€œsorry my team is currently full and wonโ€™t be considering for this academic yearโ€. I also had tons of applications which were declined. And yes I had scholarship applications which were rejected.

Phew, I was down in some of these moments as it wasnโ€™t easy for my mind to wave off some of these โ€œrejection or helplessโ€ experiences. But somehow I just knew there was something more for me beyond the shores of my home country.

I remember catching up with a friend of mine while we were on our way for her to drop me off, when I went to Abuja for one of the visa interviews. We thought Lagos was just a brutal place based on comments received so far about its rejection rates compared to that of Abuja. So it felt like the safe option.

This was after I got the 4th rejection letter. And while we were in her car, I was like โ€œAnd some people will not go through the stress Iโ€™m going through right now, possibly using fake documents and get away with it, but here I was trying to do the right thing yet they rejected itโ€. I said this with tears building up in my eyes. Such moments ainโ€™t easy when you think of all youโ€™ve invested into it. Sighs!

Did I get opportunities to walk the easy way out too. Oh yes I got such offers. But I knew it was beyond me. Because whatever means this came through for me, it just has to be โ€œAll to Godโ€™s gloryโ€.

What about the time I had packed and sorted out my bags; bought provisions and all I needed because I was already given a pass on the visa and just needed to send a supporting document.

Funny, the document was sent back to me not because the embassy rejected it but it never even got to them. Who will explain, how a whole embassy address in Abuja will be marked as incorrect. ๐Ÿ˜‚

The same place I and my mom went and is stated on Google map. But for some reason, DHL couldnโ€™t find it for 2 days and per protocol had to return it back to me. Phew!

And then I had to send it again. More money spent. ๐Ÿฅฒ

My savings spiraled down marvelously in all these. ๐Ÿ˜€ Lol, I can laugh about it now but it wasnโ€™t easy times.

Mom also took loans to fund the account needed for the time frame for the proof of funds. Because really, I wasnโ€™t going to pay tuition at all and I had GTA role that came with a good pay. But having a statement showing your tuition and living cost was still needed. Phew! where do we account for the interest paid on these loans taken at these separate times? And yet I got no visible result. ๐Ÿฅฒ

In the midst of the odds, HCCounsels (my blog and writings) kept me active. Literarily, it was my job in real time 2019-2020 because I had no job.

And some days I felt like not doing anything or reaching out but He will nudge me to. So when I get to be a part of lessening a burden, It lightens me up too. And this went on for a year plus. Phew!๏ฟผ

So to cut my long story short – Did I eventually leave? Yes I did. How?, you ask. ๐Ÿ˜Š

I did in a way I least expected. Actually โ€œweโ€ least expected. God decided to blow our minds away and brought an offer in a very short time frame and brought us down to our new location. Truthfully, I am still always amazed at this testimony. Because I never picture it happening this way.

I have planned and kept planning on a direction – A, and God decided to show up in a direction – Z. Trust me, it was way out of my expectation.

Did I feel the frights in between our visa applications for this one. Oh yes I did. I had resigned from work even before we got a response. Call me crazy faith lady. But really I struggled doing it, but I have had a similar experience, when I knew I had to leave my work place (even though part of why I left, fell sideways), because it was time to. It was one of such moments when He was teaching me โ€œTrustโ€ even when it seems nothing is working according to plan.

This time around I am on a much bigger faith walk – โ€œTake each day with me, step after stepโ€. That was the word He gave me. It has been a year of not overthinking things (knowing how active my head functions ๐Ÿคฃ). And not having to plan much because trust me my planning means I have factored the pros and cons and I take the safe route. ๐Ÿ˜‚

So yes, no planning the Mercyโ€™s way. It was time to trust Him, even if the full picture isnโ€™t yet in full view. I would say it has helped me live in the moment, and be grateful for each day instead of waiting for what Iโ€™m expecting to happen next week or in a couple of weeks. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

I am thankful we are where we are. I am loving it here and the people here are all smiling at you when they look at you. And trust me. joy and calm are two things we all need. ๐Ÿ˜Š

So yes, God always has a plan. And maybe it seems like God is pushing you hard because others are having it easy and you havenโ€™t, God has His timing set for you and nothing (absolutely nothing) can stop Him from showing up for you. It didnโ€™t stop Him from raising Lazarus right?

I remember a funny thing that happened at different times during the waiting years – I had shared my testimonies in advance for God coming through for the visas that were denied. Danced, rejoiced etc in faith and it all went futile. In it God would remind me that I promised to testify to His faithfulness regardless. So yes, I always did share the testimony.

During some of these moments of sharing, I was holding back the tears because it wasnโ€™t like it happened and it was painful. And here I was saying thank you Jesus, because you are faithful even though this visa was rejected and I am feeling lost on why this keeps happening. ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

Lol, I would have thought God hated me but no, there was that knowing, that God still had good plans for me. Yes I cried myself to sleep countless times. I even told Him to give me a mini break one night when I was way over my head. But nah, Abba must have watched me go to sleep cooking up the comfort I needed because the next morning, I woke up to His words and that brought me back. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

So yes, one thing kept me going – โ€œHis past faithfulnessโ€

And until I got to that point He needed me at, He kept me in His waiting and molding room. Do I hate the wait now, No! Rather Iโ€™m now most thankful for it. Yes He didnโ€™t allow my journey on this one to be easy peasy as they say.

But I have over time had opportunities to share my testimonies and experiences with lives and itโ€™s encouraging them to keep trusting.

So yes, the wait was worth it because itโ€™s blessing lives. And that is what I live for – A life spent by giving – not just monetary but in presence, prayers and gifts as the situation demands it. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

Lastly, I am thankful for my family and friends who stood by in my lows. โค๏ธ

I pray that your faith becomes more strengthened as you have read this. And may you never underestimate the power and promises of God over your life.

One of my favorite songs:

All my life you have been faithful, All my life you have been so so good. With every breathe that I am able. I will sing of the goodness of God.

TitleGoodness of God by Bethel Music

๐Ÿ”˜#HCCounsels#๐Ÿ”˜

40 Comments Add yours

  1. His ways are higher than ours!

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    1. Yes sis. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ
      He is greater in every way. โค๏ธ

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  2. vgeorg says:

    Wonderful life story. Keep your faith in Jesus. Greetings to you, to your family. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Thank you Jesus. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ
      I will. ๐Ÿ˜Š
      Thank you so much, sir. I appreciate your kind words. ๐Ÿค—

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  3. Wow. It’s cool to hear about how your dreams came true after so many years. Where are you now? I hope we’ll get to hear about your experience in your new place at some point. God bless you, Mercy!

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    1. Smiles. โค๏ธ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ
      Netherlands.
      Smiles. I believe you will. ๐Ÿ˜Š
      Amen. Thank you, maโ€™am. โค๏ธ
      Godโ€™s blessings to you this week and always. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

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      1. Ah, how fun! I know a few people who have lived there and someone from there also! That’s great! I hope you enjoy it immensely!

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        1. Smiles. Thatโ€™s really nice.
          Itโ€™s a nice and calm place so far. ๐Ÿ˜Š
          We are. And Amen to that. ๐Ÿค—
          Thank you so much, maโ€™am. โค๏ธ

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  4. capost2k says:

    Dearest Mercy, your trials are not over. Just changing venues. Father will keep ‘pruning’ you as you bear fruit for the Master of the vineyard, and that pruning can be painful, but as you remain faithful as a follower of Jesus and as a wife, He will bless you out of your mind!
    “Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.” Ephesians 3:20
    โค๏ธ&๐Ÿ™, c.a.

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    1. Hmm. We are kept in the pruning room. ๐Ÿ“Œ
      Amen. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป
      Thank you for sharing this verse, sir. Itโ€™s always an encouraging verse to read. ๐Ÿ“Œ
      You are blessed in all you do this week, Amen. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

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  5. Most times, Father allows us to go through certain situations, just so We can Change the Situations of Others. Many thanks for sharing this!

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    1. Yeah I believe so too. In it all, our lives are created to be a blessing beyond just ourselves. ๐Ÿ’ฏ
      Glad to, bro. ๐Ÿ™‚
      Godโ€™s blessings to you this week and always. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

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      1. Well said! Blessings to you as well!

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  6. jesusluvsall says:

    Little sister one question- Where are you now? lol
    I have appreciated your blog little sister. Keep sharing ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Smiles. Big bro – Netherlands. ๐Ÿ™‚
      Aww. Thank you. ๐Ÿค—
      I will. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ
      Blessings to you today and always. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

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  7. I loved reading your story! Yes, it is inspiring and such a wonderful testimony of faith, but I couldn’t help but cry a little. They were tears of joy but also shame. I felt ashamed of myself for feeling sorry for myself when others are struggling so much but always keeping the faith. God bless you and I will keep you in my prayers.

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    1. Smiles. Iโ€™m glad to know that you did. ๐Ÿค—
      Aww. Hugs.
      It is fine, sir. I believe the Lord empowers us all in it all. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™‚
      Amen. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป
      Thank you. Iโ€™d appreciate this. ๐Ÿ˜Š
      Blessings to you sir. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

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  8. Manu says:

    Beautiful reminder to wait on God. As you experienced, waiting is never easy but it does shape us.
    Where are you now Mercy? Praying that the Lord will bless and guide you in this new place and phase of your life.

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    1. ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ
      Yes. Itโ€™s not easy but it truly does shape us. ๐Ÿ’ฏ
      Netherlands maโ€™am. ๐Ÿ˜Š
      Amen. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป
      Thank you so much for your kind words and prayers. โค๏ธ
      Godโ€™s blessings to you now and always. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

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      1. Manu says:

        Thank you for telling me where you are now. Netherlands is a lovely place. Many blessings to you.

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        1. You are welcome, maโ€™am. ๐Ÿค—
          Yes ma. It is. ๐Ÿ˜Š
          Amen. I appreciate you. ๐Ÿค—

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  9. This encouraged me -GOD continues to mold and guide until we reach HIS destination HE has already planned out for us…

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    1. I am glad knowing it did, sir. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™‚
      I pray for a blessed week for you and all yours. Amen. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

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  10. Adefila Beatrice Toluwani says:

    This is so inspiring.
    God can never forget his own.
    I pray to have testimonies soon in everything concerning me.
    Congratulations sis! You are loved.

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    1. Hugs sis. โค๏ธ
      Yes He wonโ€™t. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’ฏ
      Amen. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป
      Thanks sis. ๐Ÿค—
      Aww. ๐Ÿ˜Š
      And you too. โค๏ธ

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  11. Hephzibah says:

    Hi Mercy!
    Greatly encouraged by your testimony!
    I find myself in a bitter-sweet; canโ€™t explain type of situation, nevertheless in the waiting mode in my life as well.. (donโ€™t know if you could make out anything by what I just said)โ€ฆ ๐Ÿ˜‚ wellโ€ฆ thanks for sharing your awesome testimony! God bless you in this new place! ๐Ÿค—โค๏ธ

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    1. Hi sis. ๐Ÿค—
      Iโ€™m glad knowing you are by it. ๐Ÿ™‚๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ
      Smiles. I can – And I know that it will all end in praise dear. Hugs
      ๐Ÿ˜Š You are welcome and thanks for sharing yours too. ๐Ÿ˜‰
      Amen. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป
      Thank you. Blessings. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿปโค๏ธ

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      1. Hephzibah says:

        Thank you dear๐Ÿ˜

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  12. Hilda Imali says:

    ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ God

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    1. Smiles. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿค—
      Happy new week, sis. ๐Ÿ˜Š

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      1. Hilda Imali says:

        ๐ŸŒผ๐ŸŒผ๐ŸŒผ

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  13. Humm…

    I see a faithful God in all..

    Thanks for sharing sis.

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    1. Smiles. Yes He is. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ
      Glad to. Thanks for reading too, bro.
      Blessings. ๐Ÿค—

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  14. Happy for you! God is good! ๐Ÿ™

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    1. Thank you sis. ๐Ÿค—
      Yes He is. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ
      Blessings. ๐Ÿค—

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  15. Powerful testament to your faith in God. His grace fuels your perseverance. God’s peace is with you.

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    1. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ˜Š
      Yes, His Grace keeps us going. ๐Ÿ’ฏ
      Amen. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป
      Thank you, sir. ๐Ÿค—
      Wishing you a blessed new week. ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป

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  16. Aww so happy for you Mercy.
    What a glorious God who will always fulfill His promises in our life.
    Thank you for sharing your testimony.
    Itโ€™s beautiful to see how everything eventually worked out for you and yours accordingly. Glory to God.
    Hope youโ€™re enjoying your new location.
    The God of 2015, when you first said that prayer, is still the same God of 2021.

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    1. Thanks sis. ๐Ÿ˜Š
      Yes!!! ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

      Glad to have shared it. Thanks for your comment and your your kind words. โค๏ธ

      Yes sis. I am – we are. ๐Ÿ˜Š

      Yes! He is still faithful all the same. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿผ

      Blessings. ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—

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